My 8 wishes on the 8th day of December '08

It's been 22 years of living in this crazy universe, There are several wishes that came true but the most important wishes are in this LIST!

WISHES:

8th: To have a new phone!! DAMN in my college days i have one of the newest model of CELLPHNE but no? I'm working...duh..have nothing! well its not really that important but i want a brand new CP!!yeeehhheeeyy!!

7th: I want to spend time with my family..including my HUBBY (LESTHURRRR) i just want to have bondng with them... Simple treat for them... wish i have alot of money...para outside the country..whhheeew!

6th: I wish na umuwi c kathy at mabuo kme TRIO..barkada...Batch....Gusto ko ulit cla makakwentuhan... makainuman...Masabi lht ng nangyari sa mga araw na wla cla...damn! i miss my friends! sna nakikita nla ngeun kung anu ung mga ngbago sa akin nung nwla cal... TRIo ay mananatiling spesyal sa buhay ko...kasi kami un e...ang totoong TAO at mga kaibigan ko..na mhal na mhal ako.... C ASTIG, MALDITA,,,at C FLIRT...mgkikita pren taui mga pare,,,ndi man d2...sa ibang lugar...loving u both!!

5th: I want to travel!! yan ang gusto ko dati pa...mgtravel sa ibat ibang lugar...kasi during my hayskul at collge days... my mom is so strict and i can't go out wid my buddies! plge ako iwan...kaya e2 ako pg bumibyahe ng mtagal e ngawa ako peanut butter! in short nagsususka ako! BYAHILO!!! hahahah.... nakakahiya pero 22o..until now...d pren ako sanay mgbyahe! buti nlng minsan travel kme ng potpot ko! pero d na mdlas!

4th: para sa INFORMATICS... hayyyss!! BGYAN nyo kme ng STUDENTS!!nyahahha... well medyo challge smen ngeun un ee...kc umalis na si mam celyn and we have to prove something sa BOSS na kaya namn kht wla man c mam...cympre.masya and2 cxa pro we have to move on and face tha reality na...kami na ang responsable sa anuman mangyayari regarding sales!!! tska sana din e PUMASA mga studs sa project...Pare atlest e auz na!!!hihihih... LOVE u guyss!!!!! the HBC club...ang mga 1st year na pasaway...at ang mga matitino..hihiih... love them ol!!

3rd: I wish that my sister will be happy..as well as my other ata and kuya! well my sister is fiannlym getting married,,,sa june pa namn pero im so happy that nakita na nya ung mtagal na nyang hinahanap... its been 30 yrs of searchng for that guy! DAMN muntik na cxang sumuko...sna mging masaya ang ate ko...kasi d ko napapakita but I love her so much,...and sympre ang kapalit ng kaligayhan nya e responsibilidad ko na ang mga magulang ko...ol by myself...cypre...mgkakapamilya na cxa...and i have 2 take gud care of my parents... well 22o namn i want to gve them ung buhay na d pa nila nararanasan... i want my mom to be happy...kasi d nya ako iniwan from the very start,,,kya lumaki kme spoiled..kasi never nya kme pngtrabaho,pinagluto...lht cxa...d best mom....cypre ung tatay ko gusto ko mtpos na ung pgtatarabaho nya,,,RESt namn db...dhil d na cla bata..at sana paps!! STOP DRINGKING AYT?? gusto ko ng gud health para sa pamilya ko... hayss! at sa mga pamangkin kong makukulit! mahal ko kau!! sobra!! at sa ate jen ko..sana e umuwi na c kuya wel at mgkasama na cla pamilya...mtgal na cla ngkalayo e...para na clang d mgasawa...para my mg guguide din na tatay sa mga pamangkin ko!! i love them sooo much!!! and FOR mu one and ony kuya,, sana mgcing na cxa sa katotohanan na gaga asawa nya...a wlang gnawang mbuti kundi gastahjin lht ng ipon nila..gusto ko makatagpo ang kuya ko ng tamang babae 4 him...gwapo pa ca noh! at may asim pa..wehehheh!!! love him so much!!cxa ngpaaral skn e...kht na ngaswa na cxa....d cxa 2migl suportahan kme nina ate at mama...huhuhuh T_T...touch!!!

2nd: Is for my one and only HUSBAND... well I just want him to be a GOOD boy... sana d na nya ako bgyan ng sama ng loob...at d na cxa mging pasaway... at sana mtagal pa ung pgsasamahan nmn dlwa... I love this PASWAY so much...i will do everything para sknya... madame kmeng ups and down pero sana pgdating ng panahon..mging skn ng buo ung puso nya... I wish maging enuf na ang pgmamahal ko para sknya..sana dumating ung panahon na ako nlng nakikita nya...para sa future nya,,, I kow im not his ideal wife to be...but mybe sana mkita nya im worth for that position... I love to love him... kht na minsan nasasaktan na ako,,,d ako titigil kasi im happy pren sknya!! some of you didnt understand why i love my potpot despite of everything na ngwa nya...still cxa pren ang gusto kong mahaln... AWTZ....I love you so much MARK LESTER REAL!
(SANA maGUSTUHAN NA AKO NG NANAY MO,,hahahahahha)

and my LAST wish is,,, Not for me.... BUT for HIm.... i oweiz telling myself bakit kelangan kong humiling ng bagay na materyal... na ikakasaya ko..pero masisira din pgtagal ng panahon... PERO ang makita cxang masaya is enuf for me to be happy aswell... Gusto kong mging masaya ang taong MAHAL ko... gusto ko mging masaya cxa sa piling ko.. I may not have oll the wealth and expensive things na pwedeeng maibigay sknya..i have my life namn to share with him till eternity... I have my heart that only beat for HIM... nabubuhay ako sa araw araw dhl sa pgmamahal nya... nasasaktan man ako...pero d ako natakot at nagsawa na mhalin ang taong yun...ng paulit ulit...he's been my better half for the last 10 and half months...I'm sorry for the heartache...problems...sa pgiging pasaway ko..sa araw araw...pero d ako mgsasawa na mhalin ka! PUNYETA ka...hihh... and I wish mging ENUF na ako...TAYO dlwa... I love him so much...and I'm happy seeing you happy HON... wish w''ll be together sa birthday ko... hmmmm...HAPPPYYYY ako bsta ur wid me....i love you,,,and i'll kiss you LATER...

well.. sana kht e2 8 wishes ko e matupad...hihihi... This r my wishes na ipapanalangin ko sa araw arw na mtupad... LOVE you all....

sa mga OFFICEMATE KO..GAME NA SA SAT!!!hihihi


GRACIA!!! :)

LETTING GO...

This time i have to let go..let go the pain...the feelings that ive been trying to hide for several months...i have to let go this feelings so that i cud start my life trusting and loving again..Lately ive been trying so hard to act like there's nothing wrong..that iam numb for all the pain that ive been through...But as the days goes by.. i see myself slowly fading...my love turns to doubts...trusting turns to disappointment...i got eaten up by my insecurities... In evrything i do..i can't stop comparing myself to a person that he used to love...(i wish im correct for using USED)...i wish...his love for her is already gone...I can't hide the truth that im still hurting and afraid that time may come and he would realize that he is still have something for that "PAST"... and i'm still hoping that I' enough for HIM... That My LOVE wud be Enough....

HIs asking me everytime why can't i forget everything that had happen and give him another chance...give him trust that he won't commit the same mistakes again... Y can't i let him do things that he used to do and that is loving me completly,,, maybe because.. Im afraid that when i gave him that chance and believe that he would do things to fix everything,,, I'm afraid that if he fails that would be the time that we have to part ways... bcoz at that time...I would be completly destroyed... I don't want that to happen...that i would hate him so much..that i wish i never met him...

But now...I'm letting go...Letting go for those negative feelings i have here in me! I'm starting to believe that there is a chance for evryone... If he fails...then we fail...I should not push him to do things that cud hurt not just me...but both of us... For this past few days of being away from him...I realize that I'm still trap in my past... Ive already forgve him but still i can't forget it that's why my hurt won't end... But this things wont do me any GOOD because the cursed that is living in my soul wont let go,,, this is the reason why i don't get the happiness that i want...This time i gave my All and Trust GOD in my life,,, whatever plans that come our way...we have to face it... we have to face all the consqunces...TOGETHER.... I love him...and will continue loving him... My Love ,. My Life,. My Graceful Reality...:)

Without YOu...(MY POLAR BEAR)

Its been 4 nights 10hrs and ten minutes wen he left, God its been like years since i last saw him... Honestly I hate myself coz im oweiz giving him a hard time...I know ive been so unfair to him lately..like he said I olweiz got pissed of for nothing... not EVRYTIME HONEY!!! u oweiz doing things that really pissd me of! u must admit dat!!!..hahahha,,,here iam again..hahahah... Joking aside... I'm really sorry for everything dat had happen last week,,, I should spent time with you laughing and cuddling u instead of shouting and be mad at you... well u know y HON... I just can't accept d situation that u have to GO to manila 4 1 week...GOD this is the first time dat ull be away frm me! coz uve been my every day routine.. and it really sucks!!!! that u have to be gone that long...

Last Nyt... I have a lot of questions in mind... i don't wanna go on to details... I just realize 1 thing..I realize That I can't live without him... I'm asking GOd y does he oweiz test my love for Him... Y does he have to hurt me everytime just to prove my love for that person,,, I;m asking him..if His not the ONE for me..then give me the sign and the strength to leave him.. But I end up... Crying because I know in my heart that from the start I'm oweiz prayng that He will be mine forever.. That he wud be my LAST... well I'm still Praying...

TOm... or on SAturday,,, he will be back...my test is finally over...i have my POLAR BEAR AGAIN... Be ready HON... ur ms. PIGGY will KILL you,,,hihih,,,,u miss me pla huh? hihihi...don't worry i wont shout at u again... wen Im mad...I will just have to "KILITI U in ur hita...DEN... u will beg me stop..whahahhahah!!" I miss YOU hon... REALLY... BE a gud boi...its ur last night there...and tom... ull be with me again....I love you my POLAR BEAR... come back... and we'll have more cuddling... fighting and arguments to come...hahhaha! ur not excited i know..hihihi! well deal with it... that's the consquence u have to face.. BECAUSE ... U LOVE ME.... and I LOVE YOU MORE,,, C u soon HON.... i really MISS you!

MS. PIGGY

Memories From the PAST..

It's been 10 months of love,hurt,tears and joy...A rollercoaster ride for the both of us..as i read his first message i realize wer not really just lovers..wer best friends...i can still remember how much i cried wen 1 of my best friend leaves the country...damn...i feel so alone...and know wat...his there..every second of the day,,,his been my best buddy...my pillow...weheheh and his been my everyday routine...his first message was...this,,,

SUBJECT: Psssttt!!

i know ur not gonna be fine when she leaves,but lets put things to considerations,distance is only distance but the fact that she loves you a lot is enough for her to comeback.time will tell but still its the bond that makes you 3 who you are,loneliness always sinks in but lets make it a postive one,im always be here for you whenever wherever you need me,just a buzz away,d p sya ppnta s mars kaya pa natin abutin un aight!cheer up bunz love you aight!

touchy...his been there through my every day life...wen im mad,sad,happy...well i guess God gave him to me...his my gift...I really appreciate every moment that his beside me...

someone told me.. Y him?? maybe if i cud show how much he loves and cares for me...u woudn't ask why..I recall at the 25 of December last year... wer together...i got confused...wer gonna go to church..he said...hmmmm...weird...coz dis guy never goes there,,,hahahha....(GROTO lucban)...wheewwww...unforgetable place... soooo happy bak then... He hold my hand..and kissed it... and talk to God... Promise that he will take care of me...and love me forever...AWTZ!!! T_T...

in that day...i told myself..that i'min love wid him...and im gonna keep him and take good care of him...for as long as i live...

...messages....

ang primary ko tngnnn mo.......ikaw lng mmhalin ko khit ano mngyri ha........sirain mn ng kung cno asshole cla.....magtae mhal kta nyhahahhahaha....love u asawa ko


its always u that makes me smile.....remember this no one can replace u i owe u my life...needless to sya that my love for you is so deep i love you so much


tnx for noticing me...tnx for giving me a smile...tnx for brightening my day...tnx for the commitment..tnx for not giving me up..you worked so hard for me you've given me the will to do things beyond my reach..im longing for someone like you and now the day has come that my life will never be the same i thank you for that...coz everytime my eyes open their's the grace that i love dearly..no one can seperate us,my love for you is ever so true...all im asking is be with me hold my hand dont ever let go.....i never had so much love in my whole life...ur the every reason im doing this...remmber that i love you so much no matter what....understand our short comings face challenges with me everythings gonna be aight!...i love you so much my dear wife u mean the world and life to me..im proud to be your husband....for this I THANK YOU....I L;OVE YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART

P.S.
advance happy monthsary i love you my dear


hugz i just want to ask a favor hold on to me dont ever let go..you know how much i love you pls.take care of me and love me til your last breathe..can you say yes to that????i love you thanks for the patience!!


sympwe mahirap din po kasi un para sken,kung ako n lng ssktan nla ako n lng wla k nmn kslanan eh..hndi n nka plano ang buhay ko FIX n ako n ikaw makakasamo ko hbang buhay...this is my choice and it always be this way no matter what...khit cno p maging hadlang ikaw p rin mmhalin ko wla ng iba...
hi my wife...ang mahal n mhal ko s lhat..i know ur grumpy hihihiihihih juz wanna say i love you very much..and thanks for giving me a smile each and everyday


i know im not perfect,i know im dumb but that doesnt mean na i dont care for you..hope u dont have the impression that your not MAHALAGA to me.ikw buhay ko hugz...and it kills me kung mron ako mga bgay n hndi ko kya ibgay.pagpacenxiahan mo n ako,alam ko msma loob mo sorry

bakit ngayon lang ba ako mhalaga syo hihihihihihih,i love my wife more than she'll ever know,im always saying how good my life is because your here...mahal ikaw na lang ang mamahalin ko wla na iba.juzz wanna say that i live you dearly your the reason why im here and doing things that make you proud love you so much


tnx for giving me time,understanding my flaws.sometimes im a lil bit too much,thats how i love you,i know you think of me as mataray e2 po kasi ako eh sana u dont get tired of me.mhal ikaw n ang mkksma ko s hbang buhay wla ng iba.pwde p b ako humiling ng iba eh nndyan ka na.favor mhal ako n lng mmhalin mo ha.....im asking you a question??will you marry me im serious ha will you stay with me?

last night im saying my deepest apologies im sorry if im so damn mahigpit im sorry its just that im protecting with my life and im sorry i know i have my short comings.....and thats not what im good at handling those damn things....just want to say im not living you for whatever reasons in the world coz all in all the most important decision is you no one or nothing can push me to leave you.....and for me sana ikaw din,d kita iiwan dhil lng s kung ano man,im gonna understand,adjust and give whatever it takes for this relationship,what im asking you is dont leave me in hell please im begging you,the tought of leaving is not in my mind.....im hoping for it,dont give up dont let go.....i love you so much

thats why im here mahal kong asawa im alwys here 2 guide you each every step of the way,you prove enough love that im not asking for more,i just want you to learn things from me,just try to listen and accept all the feelings and emotions,coz thats what im doing,your the greatest and the most wonderful girlfriend i have,im not saying this because your my present but i know and god knows for a fact how wonderful you are,there will be ups and downs thats how lifes go,but we can overpower it by our love and devotion to each other.no matter what happens the one person that i will try to keep is you and only you.i loved you through whatever it may be and proud that i loved you,no one can ask me to forget my love.coz its the only thing that i truly proud of.hugz u mean so much to me dont say things na i dont love you,i've changed.coz the last thing im gonna do is hurt you,my love for you is too deep that i cant imagine how to get off thats why im gonna do everything for you to stay and not give up.please dont give up dont let go.its the only thing we have our bond to each other that we'll love each other no matter what every step of the way,i enjoy doing things with you there is not a single time that i didnt enjoy,just looking at you makes me happy.i have many problems i know but despite all of that,there's a portion of me that is proud to say how much i love you,whatever i do my feelings is just for you i dont doubt what feelings you have for me coz i know that love is only feelings that you have.my dedication for you is strong,just take time to understand our feelings,coz its gonna be fine when we understand everything.hugz can i say that i wont leave by your side,i wont change,i dont change sometimes grumpiness takes over,but thats just it,i hope you see how my love for you is so true,dont doubt the feelings that we have,dont make jokes that youll leave coz it hurts me,i know you just want to make me mad but try to not push to the extent but im not getting mad just tampo lang,i know your young let us handle this relationship lets talk take off the pride coz when someone's mad the both of us will.its been a long letter hope you understand everything if not ask me or try to get some dictionary so you can understand every words....my wife i love you so much you mean the world to me,my love for you can not be measured by things or things I JUST LOVE YOU from here to there.

your my princess thats why i love you so dearly......
Thanks for giving me a wonderful life

The day you were born, the whole world was blessed
These thoughts in my mind to you I must confess

The time has come for me to express my true feelings

You are the center of my thoughts and the essence of my being


What you have brought me I never thought I could procure

The gift of comfort, with you I am secure
For you have lifted me up from a life filled with sorrow
And made me realize there is always a better tomorrow
It amazes me how someone can make me feel this way
I love you more and more with each passing day
You brighten my days and lift my spirits
I have felt this for so long and now want you to hear it

So you may know the place you hold in my heart
You are always with me even when we're apart
I truly believe what we have is meant to be
Just open your heart and soon you shall see

What I am willing to do to keep a smile on your face
Just know that I'm here and will be always


its been a wonderful journey.problems comes and goes.......but the only thing is right is that i love you........i know your confused its your decision to change your life changes would make or break you.......the only change in my life is loving you and im enjoying every part of it.....i have no regrets bring on the problems im gonna accept it with a big smile on my face coz i know there are a reason to solve this challnges and the reason is my love for you will be endless....love you so much

every word...i treasured it...Thanks for loving me...Happy 10th monthry....

INLOVE @ OCTOBER

A year had past, Im so inlove at this at this month... Know Y? this is the time wer our happi moments begun.. The phone calls that never stopped..until d break of dawn...the songs that he sings every now and den,the petty fights that wer keep on arguing.. The sweet words that he keep on saying.. Our love story begins in this month.. I feel so HAPPY wen he came to my life.. he's my better half.. His my life..

I still recall that they wen he said that I'm his princess,His soulmate..We really started as friends,buddys..bestfriends..we can say watever we want..no wrong answers..we share alot of secrets...shhhhhhhh!! I'm his love consultant.. Really...I'm kinda laughing wen i remembr that incident that his so upset..and i have to stay at the phone for hours just to give him an advice,,, hahahaha! I'm so sad wen his crying about that girl,because i know that he loves her so much.. If only i cud take that hurt from him...i'll do it...because i love him...In this month.. he becomes my evryday rituals..wer like twins.. I also miss ZYMERGY... that resto is the witness of our love story.. that resto cud tell the feelings that we have 4 each other...he always ordrs veggie pasta..hahahha... funny,,,i really miss it!T_T.... GOSH!!!

Though there are many things that had change still.. My love for him will still be the same.. Honestly... I miss the long ours of talking, the stupid games that we play..The songs that he sings...The sweet words that he keeps on saying.. The Love that he used to shre wid me.. I wish that 1 day.. we can go back on that month..wer in the love is never easy to show...I wud like to be at that situation again..that i can believe in everything that he says..no doubts, no questions,nothing to be afraid of.. But i guess it takes time to get bak that old me... the old grace that love her life/her better half!.... 1 day i hope that it will happen again,,,that i'll be ready to love him completly.. I love him so much...and it will be forever... Watever happn...He will be my Love...My Life...My GRACEFUL REALITY....

How to start my Life Again

This is my First Blog, I want to Thank Ms. Danielle for making this Account.. I really love this girll, she's one of a kind, actually she's one of my angel and she knows that.

There are alot of things that bothers me ryt now, how will i start my life again,wat will i do to make my life meaningful?How can i be enuf?How can i forget things that hurts me?Is it the right time to trust again?Is it woth it?Let me give you a Hint why der are alot of questions in my mind ryt now.. I'm in the middle of a bridge wer in i have to make decisions.. Decisions that can MAKE or BREAK me. And if I crossed that bridge.. will i be HAPPY?? wen i Get Out of that BOX can i make sure that i can be the girl they expect me to be..will i make them proud? or i'll be a big disappointment!

How do I start, well..during my college days. I'm eager to prove something..that I'm not the girl they expect me to be! well honestly my life was boring.. i'm a loner during my highskul days.. I'm a dramatic piece of Shit, I make things complicated... Ive got easily affected by someone.. Like everybody else i want to be different.. During that time i was so In love with Love..I want to be in love.. I want to be LOved.. I believe in Fairy Tales,Forever and Happy Endings! I had ALot of Flings,special wahtever in my life.. But 1 day I got tired and i told myself that i have to be in serious or else..i will build an image that i will regret forever..I dowanna go on into details anymore,,wen I have time...well maybe i can share it wid you..but for the min time,.Let me be the master of my decisons!